Lately I’ve had pretty good days; the pain hasn’t been too terrible and I’ve actually managed to get things done around the house. I keep hoping to tackle the big projects like cleaning out the office or really getting this place cleaned back up but so far I haven’t felt up to it. While I do have the good days, I still have a few bad ones and tonight has been one of the worst. I didn’t sleep well last night, although I have been sleeping better since my surgery last night felt more like when I first had my surgery. I couldn’t get comfortable, no matter how I laid my incision area hurt, I ached, it was a terrible night. Of course Abby was up bright and early and honestly I didn’t feel too terrible as we started our day.
As the day passed though I definitely started feeling pretty rotten. Maybe it’s the crazy weather, maybe it was my lack of sleep, I’m not sure but no matter what I did I hurt. I couldn’t sit comfortably on the couch, it hurt to simply stand up and walk around, I just really hurt today for some reason. I was so achy and exhausted that I fell asleep during Abby’s nap, I haven’t done that in a long time!
As evening arrived I just really went downhill, a migraine moved in and it seemed like I suddenly had a fever. My incision hurt worse than ever and I wanted nothing more than to crawl into bed…
Funny isn’t it… how all day you can be totally exhausted and just want to sleep yet when bedtime arrives you suddenly can’t sleep?
Yeah… that’s how my night is. As terrible as I feel, here it is after 1am and I still can’t get to sleep. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow so really I need the rest. I haven’t gotten to talk to my doctor since before my surgery so I really don’t want to have to reschedule again (had to last week that to winter weather and severe thunderstorms… yes all in the same day!).
I’m just ready to feel better, feel like normal again and actually have my energy back and not hurt so much. I want to clean my house, take Abby to the park, go grocery shopping (never thought I would say that!) and actually just be me again. I can’t believe so much happened in less than a month… less than a month I went to have this spot seen about, had numerous tests done and had surgery. I guess I’m just ready to put it all behind me now.
For now I’ll suffer with the pain… I just want some sleep….